She left - 4

[gogofo]

It is not making love bank deposits. I need to refocus my vision to the ultimate goal, not what is in front of me right now. Negative emotions have no place right now in my life and attitude towards the W.

Spur her into action to see changes in me that she would not witnesses first hand. I know expectations do nothing but disappoint me, they never have helped one bit during the situation.

Thanks for the 2x4 on this, when I read back my thoughts and actions with others commentary it really puts into perspective what I did and what I need to be doing.

This week was a little hectic and the weather was bad so I didn't do the physical activities I had been doing. I was using that time to read. I need to get back to burning energy and emotions with my little workouts. I felt better about myself when I was doing them and can't help to think that my emotions, lack of energy, and not exercising aren't all related. I can't just focus on reading for self improvement, need to do the physical.

I am going to take the kids back to the W's house this evening and have dinner with her, she invited me. I'm definitely not going to bring up R talk. I am just going to focus on paving the road smooth and making love bank deposits.