Redefining Hope and Success

[juliegayle]

Reading my threads you would never believe my life used to be drama free.

Yesterday so 15 saw texts between h and owner and was devastated. He asked me if he should talk to his dad about it. I told him his dad was his dad forever and he should talk to him about how he feels but maybe wait till he was less emotional. Well h said something hateful to him and so 15 lashed out and told him what he saw and called him a cheat and a liar. H tried to blow it off and say so 15 was over reacting. That it was just a text to a friend. So 15 says he never heard him say "I love you baby to anyone but his wife." H says he talks like that to everyone. So 15 calls him a lit and calls his mom to come get him. Lots of screaming and yelling. They did have a calm talk before his Mom came. I don't know what was said. I stayed in other room with s and so 18.

Then h turns on me blames me for everything and insists I call ow. He keeps insisting over and over and stupidity takes over and I do. I leave a message saying " this is JG. I believe you know my h. He insisted I call you. "

They obviously had it planned when she would call because he walKS into my room videotaping just as the phone ribfs. The first few minutes are embarrassing nastiness from both of us With h standing there laughing. Then I figured I had nothing more to lose (dignity long gone) so I say there are 2 sides to every story. She says tell me yours.

I told her I don't hate her just what she represents. She gives the same story he does. They are not in a relationship. She tells all her friends she loves them and calls them Honet and baby. They both completely ignore the should reference. (Do they have a shared delusion that anyone would believe that)

But then I start crying and telling her how I believed him in beginning when he said he wanted to work on things and how I have done so much to make myself a better person and if I come off as a b**ch to her it is because I am heart broken and h continues to attack me daily.

He is yelling to her that I am lying but he eventually leaves. Then she tells me about her ex who was an alcoholic who she left because she didn't want that around her daughter. (Does she know h at all). In the end we made plans to get kids together to play without h?????? My idea because I said I wanted to know anyone that spends time with my child. ????

I don't know what they talked about after but h was disgusted with me this morning.

Why did I write all That. Just to document and remind myself how easy it is for me to get drawn into crazy.