I think I belong here #3

[praying_in_GA]

He came to the gym meet yesterday. Forgot to buy her flowers, missed her floor routine going to get the flowers, looked irritated at being there, left early to go "work on his project and help his brother" but actually stopped back by my house to work out since he left half of his clothes, books, and weights here. He said he would call our daughter last night since he didn't get to talk to her during the meet. I'm glad I listened to my intuition and didn't tell her he was calling because for for the 2nd night in a row they received no goodnight phone call.

Last time he called every night to talk to them. Now we don't hear from him at all.

I have discovered that life goes on without him. Things are different and even a bit harder. Of course, it's only the weekend so no work to deal with yet.

I miss him and I still love him but my feelings have changed. I just don't want him around. It's better when I don't have to see him. I have cried but not much. I don't want him here when he doesn't want to be with me and is just texting her. I want him here because he wants to be here.