Hope you allowed yourself to feel them, that's probably a lot of what's missing in your life. When we start allowing ourselves to feel again, it can be overwhelming.

Having expectations about the power of going dim is like any other expectation.

Be dim because it's the right thing for YOU right now and she doesn't want to be with you at this point in time.

Your self-reflection is good re your motives. Have you figured out why you did what you did? Would you do the same thing if the same opportunity presented itself? Does this shed light on past interactions between you and W?

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss