My daughter 13 reported their Easter celebration with their father. ( celebrated a week early )XH and OW got drunk and argued all night.. She said she couldn' t sleep so she listened to them.. XH: " Do you think it is fair for my son to see your son do f*ck all around here, he doesn' t even go to school nor have a job. He spend his days locked up in his room. He is 18." I know they don' t know their dad but do you think it is fair to my son to be here and I don' t even know him because he is in his room while I am up here watching movies with you and your kids... " Do you think I don' t love you? " OW: " I don' t know " XH: You re f*cked up OW: No, you' re f*cked up XH: I KNOW I AM.. but you' re f*cked up
LOL, Boy , too much..
But I know the influence I have on XH.. I don' t realize it sometimes but I see it later and I feel bad..
Remember at the beginning of this I had told him that it didn' t make sense to me that he was working on OUR relationship problems and OUR goals but while being with someone else.. That what was a problem to me might not be a problem to her and that our goals might not be hers ??? Well, he hasn' t changed any of it.. He has accomplished some of those goals but has left us behind. He even wanted me to tour his new home to see if I LIKE IT.. I refused. I told him that I didn' t feel comfortable and I didn' t belong there.. OW(s) have lived there.. Back at the father part of the story. I had brought up the fact that he didn' t know his kids. I wanted him to be more involved in THEIR lives not only do what HE wanted but have consideration about what THEY like and WHO they hang around with. I wanted him to BE A FATHER. I think I made him feel not good enough for us. That was not my intention. I wanted him to be more involved with us all but many things were mis-interpreted.. I forget sometimes that DEPRESSION is in him and my words can easily tear him apart.. I know cause I also got very depressed and I was also VERY FRAGILE.. We all do our best with the knowledge we have.. I HAVE MADE MANY MISTAKES through all this. I never intended to hurt him. I didn' t understood MANY THINGS and I am sure I have much more to learn.. I DO KNOW THAT I AM STILL A HUGE PART in his life. GOOD AND BAD..
