Things are going awesomely...busy, some stressors and such, but the clarity that has come since she moved out is amazing.
Being very mindful of re-writing history, some realizations have emerged. One of them being, given her emotional and mental health past, IF she wants to come home, will she be able or even willing to do the work on herself?
And would I be able to TRUST it? I think maybe that TRUST issue is at the heart of a lot of WAS turning into WAS...that the spouse can/is TRULY changing and doing the work. They don't trust that they can/are, that the spouse and things will revert back.
Well, at least those are my thoughts the little time I spend thinking about her or the sitch. I trust myself, but question now if I want to devote anymore time to this, now that I am living life pretty much with out her, and rather liking it, the peace, the sanity, I am amazed at how hard she makes life for herself.
All the stress and negativity flowed right out the door after her. Even the boys have said things about it. And, even she has..."I moved out to get away from stress and now my work and roommate are creating stress...or am I by how I think?"
So it looks like the "things I need to see" from her are growing.
And CB, I haven't torn her down at all, and will not, I am at a place where I just feel sad for her...I have processed a bit of residual anger, and hurt, but that is MY stuff to own and deal with.
So, life continues to be great...the boys are ALL stepping up...they amaze me, so proud of them...
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
