Spouse tried I didn't, now opposite

[whytry]

MrB, I was looking at myself for a while questioning why I was doing things that I knew in my heart were wrong. Not sure who asked me before and it may have been more than one. The one I know for sure is when my W filed our taxes and put entire refund in her account so I couldn't touch it. This was huge to me! I saw that my W truly feared I would waste this money to the detriment of our family. We severely needed for bills and my heart broke knowing how low I had fallen. I knew my wife had told me in January she saw the changes and was proud of me but this was a whole other level of her distrust that proved how rock bottom I had gone. So now I knew my life was at stake. W, kids, family, and my future of any/all