Upwards - Needing support, tough times ahead

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Previous thread: http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubb...t=11&page=1

I've just found out H has still been seeing OW behind my back when he promised he'd cut contact, I've gone dark & ignoring his calls (all 8 & 3 texts!) and have arranged for MIL to drop off the kids for me again as a long term thing. I plan to go into work to do a handover then won't be working there for the foreseeable future.

I need your help & support to get me back on track, I feel so weak at the moment and my head is a mess again, I just feel like walking away & filing for divorce but I know what's not what I want deep down.

I just keep wondering if THAT is a man I want in my life, a man that can lie & manipulate people so well to satisfy his own selfish needs. I know I need to let go completely but I'm finding it so hard, I'm hoping this will help me let go now I know exactly what's going on.

I would appreciate as much support as possible as really struggling thank you.