Well I've just found out my H stayed in a hotel last weekend with OW, it was all a load of bullshit that he wasn't seeing her - I'm so angry & so hurt, it's no surprise but it hurts like hell. I can't do this anymore, I can't stand by a man who is treating me like this.
I can't do this, I just can't
Divorce Final: Oct 2014
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Sorry to hear about that Up. You know what you have to do :-(
Me: 31, W: 29 T: 4 M: 2 Kids: 3 (SS: 7, SD: 4, D: 3) Separated, still living together: Nov 2013 Separate bedrooms: Feb 2014 W working away; kids with me: Nov 2014
Half of what you see and nothing they say, right? It svcks big time and even more that he's used the kids in that way.
Me: 31, W: 29 T: 4 M: 2 Kids: 3 (SS: 7, SD: 4, D: 3) Separated, still living together: Nov 2013 Separate bedrooms: Feb 2014 W working away; kids with me: Nov 2014
I just wish I had the strength to let go completely & walk away, I wish I could turn off these feelings & not love him anymore. I'm hurting so badly, I don't want to do this anymore but I know I have no choice
Divorce Final: Oct 2014
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Up, you are overwhelming yourself with this. Just think of one day at a time. Keep marching forward. Focus on you and your kids. Go as dim as you can - remember how much better you felt last time you did?
You are not cutting him off to get him to come back - you are cutting him off (from you, not the kids) so that you can focus on you, and he can take care of himself - that is not your job or concern right now.
You most certainly DO have the strength to do this. Prove yourself wrong, one day at a time.
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14
When the student its ready, the teacher will appear... Even after all this time the sun never says to the Earth, "You owe me." Look what happens with a love like that,It lights the whole sky.
Up, you are overwhelming yourself with this. Just think of one day at a time. Keep marching forward. Focus on you and your kids. Go as dim as you can - remember how much better you felt last time you did?
You are not cutting him off to get him to come back - you are cutting him off (from you, not the kids) so that you can focus on you, and he can take care of himself - that is not your job or concern right now.
You most certainly DO have the strength to do this. Prove yourself wrong, one day at a time.
I wish I believed that right now, I'll probably feel stronger when it's sunk in. I'm still reeling at the moment, though I'm not sure why as it's no surprise at all. I'm cycling between every emotion possible but disgust & anger seem to be the ones coming out ontop at the moment!
I did feel better last time I went no contact your right, hope it helps again because I can't carry on letting him pull me into his world of chaos.
Divorce Final: Oct 2014
Your struggles today, develop strength for tomorrow...
