Have I any hope...?

[bashy]

So a bad day today. Got a call from W to have breakfast at horse riding place a good 90 minutes b4 D's lesson. I agreed. Then when we arrived complained she had to go early for a wake for a friend of a friend. Tried to give advice. A big no no. Shouldn't have said anything. She told D she'd see her on horse for just 5 mins. Then asked could I leave D to in laws even though it wasn't my turn. I sighed and said this. Another no no. She complained she'd done a lot of driving favours for me this week. I breathed inwardly and tried to be the better person. Not a problem I said it was just that I had plans after she offered to take D early for me today as I'm away on holiday tomorrow and needed a few things done.
All ok then. However she then decided she couldn't stay for 5 mins to watch D as she wanted to get ready for wake. Again I played it cool but was angry. I feel she makes promises then breaks them. But I said nothing. Anyway. As she left she offered to pick me up from airport next week. I continued to be positive and said Ty.
Soooo. I've now realised that despite my W initiating things this week and us getting on great, I need to go dark properly. It's difficult when you grasp at any time your W seems to be reaching out. Reading the positive outcomes on this site has also gotten my hopes up.
So I'm going to go on holiday and finish the DB book and really take on board all it tells me. I need to be strong. On a positive though, I feel my W is enjoying seeing me otherwise y ring for breakfast plus offer to pick me up next week.
We shall see....