Spouse tried I didn't, now opposite

[whytry]

Honestly because I was an @ss. We usually fought every holiday due to my internal anger issues I always had. I did have moments of clarity before my mlc and ea where I showed my love. She knows it was always me that ignored special occasions. Lamest excuse I ever used was "you're not my mom". Also why me buying 2 valentine's gift was such an amazing achievement for me like I said previously. But since v- day was her breaking point cuz we ended up fighting that night it's the latest memory she has. It's why I'm scared