Thanks for being my sounding board. I have been awful last couple of days. Did you get a divorce in this craziness? H still sleep walks trying to get intimacy. I don't allow it because I know that he has not used protection (he has always been dumb about that.)
You are right I need to stop with the kool-aid drinking. I just don't get how he can be so nice to me and talk to me, and still want a divorce - seems dumb. But as I have found out there is no logic and he is in delusional land. I could make lots of money of this wack ball story, as I have been journaling about the craziness from day 1.
I am so glad that I found a place to vent and figure things out. I spent 4 to 5 months crying and begging for him to stay.
I am hoping the kids are enough to keep him grounded. H was a good dad, and still is pretty good. H just does not see that his late hours make him want to nap too much on days off and disappoints kids because they want to play with him.
I am going to have to put up some strength. I have family that is really pressuring me to file, and won't quit. I told him I will not do that until I am 100% ready (I don't think I will ever get there.) It is wrong - he is sick, why would I leave? Yes, he is treating me like crap and yes that hurts my family. I know they are just looking out for me, but I am tired of the argument.
