as mentioned, I knew and understand there will be skeptics...thats OK. They can either participate (with gentle firmness), watch from the sidelines, or leave...its ok.

I came to this board to be vulnerable.... to learn & heal.

To agree with LoisB... It is important to read ALL of my threads.

The real "issue" that I had was not understanding HOW to be authentic & get/speak/see/understand my truth. To find/figure my OWN answers and to trust myself. As mentioned, it came to be clear why this happens (due to my past).... However, I am still working on it. Its important to me to figure out for myself what others see as so clear, so obvious...its a struggle for me. I have always been a willing to learn & participating student.....this is what frustrates the others.

I believe I still have plenty of support here on the boards...

~cheers~ to the ones who have stuck by me, (it has not been an easy task)

M:46 H:49 T:20yrs
myD:22
H distant summer/12
H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12
BD: Dec 2/12
asked me begin to move end of Jan/13
moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff)
"agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)