Crimson,

You wrote in response to Gineen (gabbysmom) several posts way back:

GM, I know that she is not deliberately seeking to take punches at me - she is just living her life. I think I am just sensitive that that life is still without me


YOU alone are the real source of your own pain. Not XW. It is all on you because of HOW you choose to react to your own sitch. It is all self-inflicted. Let...it....go!