This last post got my attention so I wanna say a thing or two here.
Here's the thing: You and XW have been divorced for close to 2 years.
You're still keeping score (ya! all those details ^^).
You're still looking AT XW/OM's direction. Is your life so boring that you must continue looking at her life to spice yours up?
How's that helping you heal and move on in making YOUR own life much more interesting?
I can picture meeting you at a cocktail party. "Nice meeting you, Crimson. What have you been up to lately?"
Crimson: "Well...my XW screwed me so much! You wouldn't believe how...." my ears start tuning you out and I begin finding a way to extract myself from you to seek out more fun cocktail party partners to chat with.
