"... is that I understand that THIS new me, may just turn his head back my way, a side effect.."
your own words give you away. all you've done is reword it slightly different, but obviously your true focus hasnt really changed.
i think what you're realizing is that you're losing us, and now you're just selling, tell us what you think we want to hear. i dont think its working tho.
"In a ham and eggs breakfast, the hen is involved, but the pig is committed".