But you, my darling, are a WINNER! I'm liking this lemonade you've made. You have your art, your house, your SUP, your job, your family. And someday I know a tall handsome Mr. Right will come along (or maybe a short rich Mr. Right - whatever!) and treat you like the princess you are!
Have you considered taking in a boarder now that ex is gone? A few hundred extra a month and someone to chat with on occasion could all be good things. Right now my house is full with mom and oldest son, but I definitely plan to rent out a room or two in the future and use that money for traveling!