You got some good information and I don't think you ruined anything by exposing your heart but be careful with the drinking and sharing, it can backfire in a big way.

You're working on becoming the authentic you and we are never our authentic self under the influence.

Not a 2x4, just a caution.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss