Sad times

[MamaB]

My STBX is coming to town this weekend to see the kids. He wanted to stay here at the house, but saiid that would not be a good idea because my parents are visiting. He is in the hotel biz and his company manages a resort about an hour away. He said he would take our younger girls there for the weekend, but wanted to stay Thursday night and would leave early the next morning. I just email him that it would not be a good idea, but he could use my van for the weekend to drive to the hotel.

It is the first time I really pushed back about his staying here, I really don't want him to, but feel very guilty by saying no about it to. I still worry about what he is going to think of me, which really I should not. I'm dreading his responce. I'm confused.

Also, my 17yr old asked me if I would take him back if he asked. I had to really think about this, I told her that keeping my family together would be my priority, but he woukd have to do a lot of work on himself first and then a lot of work along with me. I may not always feel this way, and I don't see him wanting back. It seems so much easier for him just to walk away, I know that may or may not be true, but that is how it feels to me.