yeah you're right - I guess my hope all throughout this has been that eventually she'd see things for what they are. I guess everyone has their own version of reality.
Bug - this is going to come across as arrogant and like I have learned nothing but i really don't think much of this is about me at all anymore. She's told me that she can envision her life with me and it would be almost everything she's ever wanted but something would be missing. She can't (or won't) tell me what it is but she will say that we had it 2 months before BD. It almost feels like this whole [censored] show over the past year has taken on a life of its own and we've forgotten what our real issues were. Presumably because in her mind, its just easier to not look at them and run off with the OM.
I don't think it sounds at all arrogant.
It's not the one straw that breaks the camel's back, it's the accumulation of straws. She may not really know what her unhappiness is about. It can be much easier to move on because fixing things takes work.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
