I keep thinking to myself that I need to send an email saying that we need to sever all ties/contact and go our separate ways -- connecting if and ONLY if something is vital to the health and well-being of our S. In doing so I won't get anymore requests for extra time, or requests for pictures, or requests for updates on him.....none of that.
But then I think deeper and as satisfying as that may sound, it doesn't feel "right" with my heart. Yet, part of me does not want to be part of her life....there when she needs something....still enjoying life with OM and our S together....that imagery is PAINFUL. I feel as though kindness from me towards her will be taken as me being "OK" with everything and glad that she has a BF and that he is with my son.....I don't want kindness to be read as an endorsement. I feel like saying "I'm angry and I want you to know it!". Childish, maybe....but it's what is in my head at the moment.
