Another backslide day....I was cold tonight in interactions. I tried to be friendly but when I realized how I was I just got cold instead. I can't find a balance in my attitude that easily. I seem to either be playful or withdrawn and just can't find my center. Honestly, I just want to get through the next two months. Once I'm past these projects at work and moved into my new apartment I think I'll be able to do a lot more for me. Also, I love my S, but during the summer I will have a lot more me time. Right now I have him most every day and thats manageable but doesn't allow much GAL while working full time. My next day to myself will have been a month since the last one.
M: 43 W: 43 Married 6 yrs. T: 7 yrs. Son 20, 18, 17, 15 yrs. (w/ Autism), 12, 10
