You sound Fantastic! You ARE so moving fwd! I met him. I will never forget the look on his face as he was trying to figure out how you knew your friends from Canada - LOL! Being nice is good. I have no regrets about the times I was nice to mine - I just wish I didn't waste time thinking he was going to change his mind &'come back. LOL - so glad that didn't work out. Your ex is in la La Land. He might stay there permanently. Not you - you are a charming, vivacious woman. You WILL meet a terrific guy & make a new life. But in the meantime - do for you! Teal is my favorite colour - do it! Do what you want for you! I bought Fiestaware dinnerware in all the colours & just love setting the table. Go figure! Great changes are in the works!