Can I suggest that you're doing exactly what you need to do? You're processing the events of the past several years. Something you've put off for a long time and now you have the time and safety to do so...
As a suggestion - keep doing it, but break some of those items up into workable pieces as time goes on. There's no hurry, WH. You'll get to them when you get to them.
At some point, the comparisons won't be necessary any longer either. But to be honest, it's what you've known for a while. It seems reasonable to do it this way, to me. Just know it won't (you won't let it) last forever and it's safe to go through these feelings.
You might want to consider, if you haven't already, some physical outlet for the anger and contempt.
Just some thoughts.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
