When I read your thread a few days ago, I thought of the same story lostinscared quoted.
Crim, you're keeping yourself stuck and I would guess it's because of fear. You're holding onto everything so tightly that there's no room for change. You're holding on to your XW, your anger, your son, and now resentment about her BF and him having a R with your son.
There's a great big wonderful world waiting for you out there but you have to let go of that giant Bag-o-Crap you're carrying.
Your happiness is inside you, let it out.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss