Hoping for positive changes

[artsy]

No word from H in over a week- I think that's a record for us. It follows a pattern I've been noticing that he disappears after a positive interaction. This is just an unusually long period of NC for us.

Haven't updated in awhile because I don't really have anything to update, so I will recap what was discussed at IC:

C said, overall he is very optimistic in H's actions. Mainly because they are "different" than his usual way of operating. He said it may be a good or bad sign for the R, no way to tell yet, but at least there is some kind of action happening. (Referring to H's attempts to do "drop in" visits, his reconnecting with his D18, hanging out with new people). Time will tell.

He also said that he would bet anything H is feeling pressure right now knowing in 2 weeks my entire schedule changes. For the first time since BD 1 way back in August, I will have loads of free time (I'm a full time student, and my year ends May 2- woot! Woot! ) this will be the first time I actually have time to truly process what's happening and work through things with no distractions. He said that no doubt H has been using my busy schedule as a buffer for him to take his time. So, he suggested I prepare myself for multiple scenarios so I don't get thrown off track by erratic behavior from H. He truly feels "something" will happen this summer, either way. I think preparing myself via detachment is a good idea. I will definitely focus on that. I will also be doing GAL like it's my job! LOL I deserve it, with everything that's happened this past year!