My X is finally moving out. He got the keys to his new house this morning. He moved a few truck loads. And of course bought himself a new 70" TV. And then sort of hinted he might not be out for a few days. I told him I expected him to be sleeping in his new house by Thursday night. I seriously am over it all. It is still painful to keep seeing him. He is like a child, showing me all the photos of where he is putting his furniture. He asked me to go on his walk-thru with him the other day. I did, he picked a decent house.
I guess it is nice he wants to still be friends. But it doesn't feel nice. I feel like I am just road-kill, flattened and left dead on the road. He told me he figures I will be so lonely I will be calling him asking can I spend the night. I think he really is silly!
He also opinioned that when we are 70 we will get back together and drive an RV around visiting our grandchildren. He doesn't seem to realize I am not waiting around 15 years to drive around in an RV with him!
The far more likely outcome is I find a nice guy and in 15 years I will still be with him. And my X will be a distant memory as the joy-kill I was married to who thought I was his servant whose main function in life was feeding him and making sure the TV ran by paying the electric bill and DirecTV bill!
I am doing my best to keep being nice. I went through the cupboards and sorted out a reasonable amount of stuff for him. He went through the tools and gave me a few things. And I took out a few that were mine, like my shop apron from my college woodshop class. And he gave me 6 screwdrivers out of about 60 he has. I live a short distance from Sears and figure I will go buy tools as I need them. All the better if they are PINK!
Part of my moving on with my life plan involves swapping out some things that are familiar. Like my dishes, my pots and pans, and even buying a new car. I want to start painting my house in some new fun colors. Stuff just to please me. For so many years I have picked out stuff to lean towards "us" as in okay for a guy. I want my new bedroom to be teal! And the bathroom will be a brighter teal! And my guest room will be Asian over the top! And my sewing room will be pinks and fuchsias!
Thanks for letting me vent. I hope you are all safely and happily moving along in your life's. ALOHA!
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!
