I really can't figure out what you are trying to say in your last post. What is your point? A lot of times you just give us a "play by play" of events that occur between you and your wife. Figure out what you are looking for from this site and then make posts that help us help you.
Also, PLEASE do a thorough job of spell checking and reviewing your posts so you are conveying exactly what you are wanting to say. You seem like you're in such a hurry to post that many of your writings don't make much sense at all. It causes you to come across as very scattered and incoherent.
Me: 49 Wife: 39 D's: 9 & 11 Together: 15 Married: 13 Bomb 1 ILYBNILWU: 08/2012 Bomb 2 I feel dead inside towards you: 12/2013 EA? 06/2012-?