Wife wants a divorce

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Had a nice day with my daughter today. Picked her up from school and we went to my parents house as usual on tuesdays (we go there on tuesdays and fridays after school). Got our daughter home about 30 min earlier that usual because they have benchmark testing this week. Wife was appreciative of that. We both made her dinner(she's allergic to gluten and dairy). Then the 3 of us talked about a homework project they have due next week.

Wife and I show each other stuff from each others facebook. They were funny and it was awesome to hear her laugh. Then we talked about a vacation again in Feb 2015(we usually go on vacation for our daughter's winter break) we decided on sea world in Orlando and then going to Clearwater to see Winter from Dolphin Tale. So that will be about 5-6 days together nonstop. She did ask if she could have a couple of days in spring break since i get her then and she felt like she was 'giving up one on one time' to have a family vacation. I agree but told her I would like the same the next year.

Further down in my facebook feed I notice one of my friends that got divorced last year was at a braves game with a guy she has been dating a couple of months. She got divorced about 6 months ago and i said Hmmm out loud. My wife asked what was is it? and i told her. She said that's way too soon, and I admitted to her it would be very difficult for me if she started dating again and they started doing things together as a family. She said that she doesn't want to date for a long long time. She wants to work on herself first, lose weight etc. I told her guys are going to be knocking down her door (she's a beautiful woman) and she laughed that off (she doesn't have very high self esteem about herself physically).

By this time it's time for our daughter to go to bed, I ask my wife what she wants for dinner(i told her i was going to get something to eat earlier in the evening). She asks what I'm thinking and I told her Wendy's and she says nah i'm good. I told her I would stop by anywhere along the way and she declines. Then I remember I haven't had Arby's in a long time. I mention that and she takes me up on the offer.

So I leave and get dinner. Come back and we both eat on the couch watching a Criminal Minds rerun. Some jokes are passed back and forth and then we come upstairs because she says she's going to bed. I can't remember what exactly was said but she mentioned that in the last therapy session it hurt her that couldn't comfort me when i was crying in therapy. She said she didn't want to give me the wrong impression. I told her while I wanted her to hug me I see where she is coming from. So we go upstairs and I check on our daughter and then lay down with her because she's an irresistible cuddle bunny. My wife asks if I mind if she takes a shower with the door closed, (I guess she's just making sure I'll listen out for our daughter if i get out of her bed) I told her "of course". and she proceeds to take the longest shower known to man lol. She gets out and I tell her "i think i'll have to wait until tomorrow for the water to heat back up". We both laugh and she says it just felt so good in there. I didn't hear any crying though and I would have if she was.

I missed the therapy session today that was just for me though. I had it in my phone calendar as tomorrow and they did reschedule for tomorrow at 4. Don't know what he's going to work on but I'm guessing it's working on me and getting myself ready for the next chapter in my life.

I guess a part of me is realizing divorce is going to happen because i find myself looking up stories about couples that reconcile after divorce and stuff. I know that is years away more than likely if it happens at all.