Have I any hope...?

[bashy]

I expect the worst and hope for the best. How's that for an answer! LOL
I'm the eternal pessimist but really trying to be positive especially in front of her. I WILL NOT let my guard slip.
I just cannot understand how we get along so well yet we aren't together... Honestly, we were laughing aware so hard at the pretend text messages earlier.
But I suppose I do understand. As said previously, we didn't go out too much as a couple or with our friends as a couple. I'm more of a homebird than her. Plus she said she didn't fancy me anymore despite by great weight loss.
However, I have been going out more, enjoying my friends more etc and she is aware of this. But I'm doing this for me. Not her. Ofcourse, I do hope she sees the changing me and decides to give it another go.
Perhaps it's telling she hasn't asked for a divorce but some of my friends say that is because of the cost. But I don't buy that. Also, she hasn't changed her surname at all ie FB etc. It's all very confusing.