Something my W said last night has me perplexed. Not the first time this has kind of thing has happened and not sure how she expects me to react or why. On Sunday I took a picture of her that turned out well. My W cropped it and decided to replace her older photo and use this one as her Facebook photo, you know the one that comes up when you see them on Facebook. She has lost a lot of weight and changed her hair, wears more make-up, etc. and is always worried about how other people see her (she thinks other men don't look at her but she is VERY wrong about that!)Well, her bestfriends boyfriend saw the picture and he is obsessed with it. Went on and on about how great she looks and is bugging her to "get together" with my wife since she posted it! My W tells me this smiling and thinks it's just SOOO great! Of course her best friend is one of the people telling her how she needs to divorce me, said that the only reason she's with this guy is because she likes the sex and said "It's a good thing I really don't give a damn about him or I'd be upset about the way he's drooling over you". This woman, back around the time of B-day, suggested that my W have sex with her boyfriends son to "get it out of her system" and see if she really did want to leave me! Thank God my W told her that isn't something she would do and this woman made fun of her saying "Oh, I forgot, you're a good girl", just what someone going thru MLC needs to hear!It make's my W think that being "bad" is a way of being "independent". This is her new MLC friends, classy people don't you think?
Now, why tell me this? Does she think that it makes me feel good that the person who tells me that I'm not good enough for her is being lusted after? She definitely enjoys it, you can tell from her smile and attitude. Would she like it if I told her some bimbo was lusting after me? No, she wouldn't. Hell, some woman who works at a different office in my building invited me to go out with a group, all very innocent, and she got upset just a few months ago. She got upset that an old girlfriend I hadn't seen or spoken to in 25 years messaged ME on Facebook but messages her old fiance and says that's none of my business (this was pre B-day). Does she want me to be jealous? I can't see why she would since she has made it clear I'm not someone she wants, even after 25 years together.
Do they enjoy saying things that they hope are hurtful even though I'm not hurt, I'm disappointed that this person that I have loved and respected for so long would get such a rush from some slease lusting after her! There are so many things for her to feel good about herself about. Her work, her kids, etc. and this is what makes her happy to hear? It's not like I didn't give her positive feedback about her looks for the last 25 years. But, every time I would tell her how beautiful she was, she would tell me I was either lying or that I was the ONLY man in the world that saw her that way. She even said at one time I must have a "brain problem" that made me see her that way! Now that she's so thin people think she is ill, she thinks she is hot but of course, my opinion isn't one she values. What the hell happened to the woman I knew! Is this part of her MLC? I thought it was about her wanting to be independent and wanting to make her mark, maybe it's just about her wanting to be seen as hot by strangers and a#$*&les! Another day, another way to lose hope she'll ever get through the tunnel!
