bond.. her beginnings were very manipulative and she admits it. Yes, she grew. I will learn too. I am not starting from a manipulative place (mine is more about self respect and protecting my own heart).
That statement may appear as an ultimatum, but it was not stated to him...its my inside boundary. There is a difference.
Even "IF" I were to be "starting" with an agenda (like she did)... she had step by step instructions daily and that surprises me. She also got a bunch of hand holding through each and every interaction (even small beginnings). I may need this too. It just so happens that I work/see/interract with xbf more than most.
Ultimately, I do deserve a committed exclusive relationship.... if he isn't prepared to give that... thats ok. I just need to know.
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
