Well, this time I actually mean it... I deserve better than his scraps!

Im scared and excited.

At least now, I won't be sucked in by his "niceness" or "coffee's" that keep us connected and me hopeful. He's cake eating. He's keeping me "there" for back up.... ^^^ this is BS!! Tired of accepting the bone he occasionally throws at me, and being temporarily happy for it.

OR do I truly want him to figure out his sh!t and stop enabling the bait... to see if he really wants a committed relationship with me. If he makes no more offers, then I need to KNOW that.... now. I'm ready. He can spiral in his own mess. I'm tired of being IN HIS CONFUSION.

M:46 H:49 T:20yrs
myD:22
H distant summer/12
H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12
BD: Dec 2/12
asked me begin to move end of Jan/13
moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff)
"agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)