Yeah. Feeling pessimistic about that this week. :-( I don't see him ever being willing to stop this D train, even if he wanted to. It would seem too hard for him to swallow all that pride and face me, my friends and family again. Moving on with D will seem like the easiest path, even if he has some reservations about it. He's financially comfortable, he's not very concerned about the impact on our D3, and I don't know that he ever really loved me with all his heart. (I realize I am mind-reading a bit).
Also struggling a little bit with my GAL. I'm definitely reaching out to friends old and new and going out WAY more than I had been, but realizing that I haven't moved forward on making plans for things like Memorial Day, 4th of July, summer vacation... H would always plan those things. His group of friends and family has way more money and means to go away. I just don't have as many friends to do that kind of stuff with, with or without my D3, so I have to be more creative. I'm definitely feeling a bit defeated in that area.
Trying to focus on the positives-- gorgeous day with my D3 today, and meeting a friend for dinner tonight!
