I am sorry that you are here. You must be very busy with your kids. I hope that you are feeling well with your pregnancy.
It is odd for me to be angry or mad, it is not a behavior that usually do. I am a very easy going person. When I know that H has been with OW and he comes and gives the kids hugs or kisses it literally disgusts me. I don't like him staying in spare room, but it is the best since I disgusted by the actions he is doing with OW (which he says is only a friend.) I have been detaching, but the problem is that I cannot be nice in small talk. I just am quiet and when I do give answers they are one word responses. He has noticed as he keeps asking me what is wrong. I have a lot going on with family and work right now - he keeps getting mad, saying I am keeping stuff from him. If he were home instead of at OW house all the time - I would tell him. GRRRRRR. I have realized now that I am GAL - he is controlling. Like tonight we were running errands and he must of called home 5 times and my cell 5 times in like 15 minutes looking for us. I just was very calm and said I was driving and could not answer. It is very frustrating.
I am constantly questioning lots of things: 1. is it truly MLC 2. should I break the secrecy of the affair 3.am I doing the right things 4. What are the mental issues I am seeing from H. All this is very confusing. I wish I could get a coaching session, but I don't have extra money.
