Wife wants a divorce

[VFL]

We've been pleasant to each other the past 2 days. actually been making her laugh like i used to, part of DBing. But she still wants to go through with the divorce.

So i went into panic mode since the appt with the therapist and I messed up badly this morning, asking her to give me another chance because I realize what I need to do in order to fix this. She just keeps saying she's done, she's been done for almost a year. I told her 'you never told me'. She said when i was adamant that I wasn't going to change and I didn't want to go to therapy she saw it was pointless. It escalated to me asking her how she can just break us apart and we'll both always wonder 'What if'.

Her and my daughter left this afternoon to go to my in-laws for Easter. They go down there for holidays if i have to work. I wanted them to stay since i feel like it's my last holiday with them with me in the house, but I know she would either go anyway or resent me for it.

I called to see if they got down there ok but no answer. So i called my in laws and got my father in-law. They weren't there yet. Next he said he hates what's going on. By the time my wife was beeping in on the other line. I answer and she was in the drive thru getting their dinner. She wasn't annoyed, and i let her know i was just checking on them since it was raining the whole way down. I get back to my father in-law and he said that if i ever needed to talk he is there for me. I don't want to talk to him while my wife is down there though so I plan on calling him sunday afternoon.

He has always 'been on my side' with my wife being overbearing and controlling to a point. So we'll see what happens with that conversation on sunday.