"she has ripped my heart out and trampled all over it, I don't believe that I deserved any of that but I've accepted it."

See you're doing it again. She didn't do that to you. That's how you've chosen to view it. That builds resentment.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER