Life in a mess 2

[MrBond]

"I don't need or expect an apology for me to accept her back but I can only get back with the real her and not this alien she has become."

You still don't get it. Part of the reason she did what she did and who she is as a person now is due to how you treated her before. All the wishing that she see a C, or whatever isn't going to do any good if you're the same.

If you truly say you've changed, this has to include you understanding your role in getting her to what she's doing and not expecting her to change because you want her to.