To be honest Sandi I have forgiven her for her A. I am struggling more with how strange and distant she has become since all of this started. I really miss the girl I was in love with, I don't even really like who she is now as she is not my wife. I don't need or expect an apology for me to accept her back but I can only get back with the real her and not this alien she has become. I realise that may never happen, hopefully C will help her but it may help her decide completely that there is no way back. She has admitted she is confused etc so I know she needs this but I can no longer help her or worry for her as I have myself and my boys to worry about. I will give our family the best Easter weekend ever, then it is over for me and she can get on with 'finding herself'. I will get on with my life the best I can and hopefully time will heal my pain.
