If I may ask, how is your relationship with your ex h and his relationship with the kids? Is your son still living with his dad? I understood from your last post that you don't feel ready or ' right' (?) to be in a R wit someone else right now?
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home