Well, I have ended it.. I am feeling like I am doing wrong to the family by being in a relationship. I raised my kids with family first values. I should be standing by XH but I don't want what he has become.. I am off the rollercoaster and do not want to get back on it. Another man cannot replace him. This family is his. So here I am, on my own with 4 beautiful kids. I have been blessed with them and they are all I need.
