Let me rephrase honestly.... Just because I post about him, does not mean that I am "only" focused on him.... I do take breaks...LOL

I honestly see the importance of focusing on self.. its healthier. I am eager to learn and now when a thought of him/us pops in my head I try to switch it into a thought for me....what does Magic want to do?

I am scared too. This morning I woke up because I was having a bad dream about not trusting him. I am scared that my trust level in him has diminished a lot and this will be a challenge to get back.

M:46 H:49 T:20yrs
myD:22
H distant summer/12
H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12
BD: Dec 2/12
asked me begin to move end of Jan/13
moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff)
"agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)