I think I belong here #2

[praying_in_GA]

So, of course now that the moment has passed I am very nervous about my outburst last night. No one here has responded and I almost feel like I have really messed up. I probably should have kept my mouth shut and just told him not to worry about it but I feel like such a doormat some days. He is just coming and going as he pleases, texting S all the time... all the while I am the one working and paying all of the bills. I am paying for the phone he is using to talk to her (for now, will change probably today), the internet he uses to do his school work, the water, the power, the rent....everything! He is just going to school, flirting with his girlfriend, and watching me go crazy.

My entire life revolves around the kids. If I am not asleep for the night or work, I am homeschooling, taking them to pratice, taking them to meets, taking them to do things, and working. That is my life...sleep-gymnastics-work-homeschool. He is out with friends, getting to know a new love interest, playing basketball, eating more lunches out than I have had in a year...

It's feeling very one-sided right now and I am starting to feel very 'used'. He can't afford to move out and he can't afford to help me pay for anything. He is trying to get a job but no calls back yet. The only reason he is still here is because he has no solid place to go.

Sigh. If anyone can help, I am feeling lost right now. Please read the first post on this page and offer up some advice?