She left - 3

[gogofo]

We had our evening and things went okay. Had a ton of fun with the kids dying Easter eggs, W cooked us dinner and we ended up talking from about two hours.

I would say it was a positive talk, maybe another small step towards piecing. I will give more details in the morning but the big thing is she asked if I thought we were fixable. I just got honest and said yes, she said she wasn't sure. She doesn't know how she feels. She is not feeling like D but is also not feeling like reconnecting. She likes me, or as she put it "I must not hate you because I enjoy being around you". We laughed about it later and her choice of words. I could see her thinking about us and she would shake her head and say "I don't know". I finally told her after a couple of times that I understand how she could feel that way, but I was not asking for an answer.

Another bit of information that came out was that she had called a L and made an appointment but later cancelled. She said she just was not sure that is what she wanted.

I think I may slowly expand the text message contact at night to include questions about her and how she is doing. See if there is cheese down that hole.

Her family's Easter day was shot to help so I don't think she has plans. I thought about inviting her over to my parents to eat with the family but I am unsure if this is appropriate. It just doesn't feel right. I think my grandparents would get over excited and have expectations and I don't know how the W would feel.

Now to sleep...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz