She left - 3

[gogofo]

I know a part of my escape was from the kids. Our youngest was difficult for the first two years. He ran off three babysitters in two months. He was very moody, volatile, and a screamer. He did not cry, he screamed. The only person who could soothe him was mama. One time he screamed for two and a half hours straight while the W took some time away from the babies. He would get so upset he would sometimes vomit or pass out. He has out grown most of these traits but now treats mom very poorly as she is only supposed to provide comfort and love, in his opinion.

The other part about working is it is basically a requirement for being a project manager and owner. I signed my life away in a business agreement and took on a big project. Unfortunately everything went wrong with the project, but I never asked for help. I should have but embarrassment, and pride got in the way. When my partners learned what happened with BD they pulled my work records and were immediately upset. They said my hours and time put in should never have happened and I should have had more support. It was a lot of pressure, one job to keep 25 people making money and their families happy. Without this job we would have laid off employees. The job continuously grew in scope each week and we barely handled the load.

It was unfair to my family and those involved but being a partner it was my duty to perform. Had I been a regular employee my commitment would not have been anywhere near as great. But I have to work to put food on the table too.

I am sure at the end I was escaping from the chaos I created at home, but I was so out of my mind by then I cannot clearly recollect the conditions at home but they must have been pretty bad.