No, I get it HH. And I think if I was a little further down the road on this whole deal I would have handled it differently. I would never, ever deliberately shut out my son for anything....ever. And it pained me last night not to soak in the enthusiasm he may have had. It is just so "fresh" right now I really need to drop a wall for awhile. I will ask him all about it when I see him next and let him show me when our pool is warm enough. Without speaking to her, or being cruel or hateful or saying mean things - she needs to know that I need to back away damn near 100% and that for right now I am not "OK" with everything. I need to handle me for awhile.
Still, you did make a point and I hope that I did not make my son think dad was not there for him.
YE -- I agree, I really can't focus on any aspect of our R until I am OK. And, truthfully, I think I have either deliberately or subconsciuosly put her happiness and her happiness with me in front of my own for a long time.
