Well I am being feeling down because of the whole no contact situation and I am kind of scaredthat leaving to Hawaii will cause her to think that I dont want to really work on the M, however I think she is the one not interested in working since she has not contacted me at all.
Also I keep wondering myself how can she only have in her mind those bad things she said I did, when she never communicated those things neither she told me her daily life...
Considering the recent advice you've gotten hear about your "fear" issues, Ye, I think the time away would do you good. You're still WAY too enmeshed in what you think she thinks about you.
Sorry I can't add more, but I haven't been following your sitch all that closely.
