Crimson......still just checkin' in.

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So I guess my question, 25, and others....is that the wrong thing to do? I told her during C that I need time and distance to get her out of my head and heart after she dropped the OM bomb. Which is true....but she will probably see it as revenge....punitive...silent treatment (which would support a lot of her claims about me in our M). And, guys, I am not sure if there is part of me that isn't withdrawing at least *partly* for those reasons...but I know most of it is just to protect my heart for now. And, again, I really have nothing more to say to her at this point.

Crimson today I was talking to my brother...an ex drug user and he told me somthing very important: when we are in withdrawal doubts come to our minds so we can slip back to the drug, life its not gonna end in 2 days or weeks or months, so relax and dont rush, if she wants to be with somebody she will, that doesnt make you bad, just realize that we are not created to multitask, we need to take care of one important thing at a time. For now, focus on yourself, improve yourself and detach, you cant focus on the R untill your mind its clear and that requires you taking time for yourself, after that happens you can take care of other things, but remember first always comes you, the other people comes always second after that

Dont worry about the effect of you going dark, you are showing her that at this point you dont want her to play her games or cake eat while she is with OM, work on yourself, detach from that toxic environment and later down the road she might change the approach..