She's returning home for in house separation!

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Wouldn't it be better to go out and GAL and do something you enjoy, and come back home feeling happy and relaxed, knowing that you are working on becoming a better person for YOU--rather than finding some brief joy in her misery? Do you really think you'll feel satisfied with whatever attitude she has when she comes in the house? But how would you rather her see YOU?

Stop being so focused on her. Focus on you!

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Thanks Claire Here is what happened this afternoon.

I went for a quick 30 minute run on the Rail Trail by my house.
While on the trail I had a flood of emotions, we used to run it together. I also started to remember all the Cr@p I used to have to put up with.

Then when I was walking back home for my cool down looking at the houses by me the Kids riding their bikes on the main road (and almost getting plowed by passing cars I might ad) it hit me.

I am just to good a person to deal with all this crap.
I have a great Job, I earn in the top 5% of all earners, I am in great shape, people like me. Everyone I meet I strike up a friendship with.

Its just not worth reliving the past anymore. I have two great Sons, one who is graduating college with honors, he is going to start his life and I have to be there for him..He needs at least one stable parent that he can lean on.

My S15 is applying to the IVYs, what good is a basket case father when the kids that you room with are going to be the children of business executives and leaders...I cant be weak anymore.

Plus I need to be strong and resilient when The Creature from the Jew Lagoon returns to my house. I need to be the one in control, I need to be comfortable in my Castle. I am not the one who ran away, I am not the one who embarrassed themselves in front of his sons and was written disparaging emails.

I am not the one that even the divorce team is looking at in wonderment, I'm the one even the opposing lawyer pulled aside grasped my hand, smiled at me and said its for the best..you don't need her
Why should I bury my head in the sand?

This was what hit me like an exhilarating rush..

then I started laughing thinking now that I figured it out a rutting deer was going to come flying down my driveway and impale me on a tree now that would have been a story!!


Then I said to myself:

Instead of WAW calling it her rebirth I have decided to call it [color:#3333FF]MY rebirth..Death to the old Steve, Long Live the New Steve![/color]