Hi Rick It took a while to get back here.. I wasn't quite such a perfectionist more an organiser.. finding things to do...
I sure don't bother with that now
My H was here for the whole weekend it was unpleasant.. there was this horible tension and I realised I have ended up feeling like I should be apologising.. And he is the one having the affair and pulling my life apart nor the other way around. I want to be more assertive but it comes out argumentative.. I ended up leaving him alone as he sat flicking around on his phone. I had explained I looked forward to his company after being alone here so much.. he basically ignored me so I went upstairs to my computer.. said if he felt like company he should call when he is finished on his phone..he did after about 30 minutes.."are you going to stay up there all night?"
I am tired of his abruptness.. his low level... I am in a bad mood... He does not want to attempt any reconciliation yet has not told his family.. I feel like he does not even like me.. I want to ask and then say well go away ans stay away... guess that is not DB approach
